So not sure… But it’s possible…. very slightly possible but still possible… pretty darn excited… Stoked actually just went back and re-worked some stuff today… and… I could graduate spring semester. It would take some work, manuvering and favors plus some good clep test scores… but I could do it… Man… this could be awesome
So just so that I won’t fall into the -never updates- category; here’s what’s going on.
I’ve had a bit of trouble recently with tiredness. A few weeks leading up to the Judgment I started needing more sleep and feeling exhausted all of the time but chalked it up to the stress of everything and my project-oriented inability to stop thinking about the production.
I’ve now decided that that isn’t what it was since I’ve been sleeping 8-10 hours during the week (as opposed to my usual 4) and I’m still falling asleep in classes and consistently wanting naps.
Basically I constantly feel that I’ve been awake for the last 4 or 5 days (yea I know what that feels like); my eyes burn I don’t think straight and I always prefer bed over doing something else (even homework). So I’m going to try to schedule an appt this week to see if I can figure it out. I think I may be low on iron but I don’t have the poor circulation I usually get with anemia. I guess we’ll see.
Other than that I’ve been doing pretty good. Struggling with a few desicions but I know that ultimately God’s got it. He’s always there for me and just cause I can’t see what He’s doing doesn’t mean he’s not working it out.
I was reminded today of this illustration I’ve used before about scripture saying that God’s Word is a light to our feet. Sometimes we want to see further down the path but we’ve got to stop looking out into the darkness where we can’t see anything anyway and focus on the lighted area in front of us. God wants us to walk in faith following what he does show us and trusting Him to take care of the big picture. I need to keep my head down making sure I don’t trip over the limbs at my feet rather than trying to see where I can’t anyway.
So to any of you who struggle with this… Just watch the feet.
So I know it’s just a general -what’s going on type- blog, but out of curiosity’s sake, even if you don’t usually comment who reads this?
My 6-9 class is driving me insane. Experiences of Literature is supposed to to be about literature analysis and understanding. The class is teaching nothing. The discussions are held at about a 4th grade level. The grading is based on three papers that are not graded on content (which is what the class is about) they aren’t based on analysis, but entirely on grammer as based in the MLA handbook. You have to turn in a rough draft which she grades while you wait in class doing nothing (until she finishes ALL papers). And none of what she marks on the draft is what she will grade your final paper on. Questions are not answered well. When you worry about your grade (because the paper grades are insanely low) she tells you it’s not a big deal don’t worry about it. I hate that. If I’m worried about it it means I care don’t tell me not to.Aghhhh
I worked out tonight for the first time in a really long time it was so much fun. I forgot how much I love the feeling. And in the morning I get to leep in. I don’t have to be at work till 10:30. The small things ::Sighs happily::
This year has set the record for anything our church has ever done. God is phenomonal. I started to count my bruises and gave up at 20 saying that really even if the Judgment had killed me this year it way would have been worth it. It’s sort of a bittersweet feeling that it’s over, but my grades couldn’t handle much more. I’m going to bed now I need some sleep.
So I am a demon this year… I know it’s hard to want yourself to be ugly so when I was designing demon makeup I left my own design to Dan. He is such a blessing to have and I have to brag on him and Gary both and what a beautiful… or.. Hiddeous job they did on hell this year. It’s better than ever. I’m so glad i was able to work with them. I got to carve out all the rocks on the side of hell and learn a few other new tricks. it was awesome.
Exhausted… tired… blue (literally) and so ready to be done… next year we need to make a Judgment movie… that way we can do it all prep and not have to do it every night… My suggestion 
with the budget we use and the time that we spend… I wonder if we could actually make something cool… I know it’s a lot harder than it sounds but still…. I have other ideas to make it cooler but I am too tired to think and communicate them… plus I’m sure other people have plans too
Well Judgment setup is going… we are getting there.. the other night I stayed till about one in the morning and ground out all the rock on hell’s walls and did some of the dirt texture while Dan and Gary hung skulls. Hell is starting to come together so how come i always end up working on the -dark side- anyway we have a lot of very talented people in our church and they make the Judgment awesome… I was starting to worry…
I’ve been working on a new site for Gravity and I’m done with the design.. now we just have to get it up and running.
So So So tired…
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Show Dates
| October | |
| 24th | 7pm and 9pm |
| 25th | 7pm and 9pm |
| 26th | No Shows |
| 27th | 7pm |
| 28th | 7pm |
| 29th | 7pm and 9pm |
| 30th | 7pm and 9pm |
| 31st | 7pm, 9pm, 11pm |
So I know that we are not to be puffed up with pride, but I think that a sense of satisfaction is within the bounds. Tonight class let out early and I had 2.5 hours of extra time. Instead of wasting it because it was unplanned time I used it to catch up. I went to the library and found and read the scripts I was supposed to, did an assignment and watched the vice-presidential debate ( I could rant here but won’t). I then took a break and played cards with uriends, left when I needed to and did some more homework. I felt like I balanced my time very well.
The second thing I am proud of is sorta weird. I told myself I was going to try to drop some weight to fit into my Judgment costume but I’ve been putting it off. I had lost weight a few months ago but felt I more than gained it all back when I messed my ankle up. I decided tonight to try fitting into the leather size two’s that I was sure I would have to give up on since I dan’t have time left… and I am a LOT closer than I thought. Not perfect but if I can drop just 5 I’ll be fine and that part is always the easy part…
I feel very good about tonight…
The downside is today I realized ho close we are to The Judgment and I don,t feel ready on any front.Good news is I’ve done really well about not taking off more than I can chew.
So I’ve startud picking up a little work here and there with graphics and photography.. what’s been a little different is making things look how others want them instead of how I would do it. With logos I’ve found that I’ll do about 5 mock ups of very different designs and then get feedback… so todays work I did one final logo and one mock up for two different groups. These were a little different for me because I’m used to incorporating the name into the logo but neither of these were supposed to. This:
Engagement pictures
So the makeup tests have started once again. I have a pretty good idea of what I want to do this year for the human video demons. I am going to do something simple and quick because there will be so much movement you won’t see much.
I did ask for some ideas as to what I should do with my own since I am a little biased and I’m good with what was suggested the face and arms will look a bit like what Keira knightly had in the film King Arthur. I am going to do a cool effect for the other warrior demon using the idea from last years sword fighting demon.
I was also asked to help in the design of the scene demons Dan (who’s responsible for the 3 scene demons this year) has been learning to do makeup since he helped last year and today I showed him how to put a foam latex mask on it was a lot of fun.Again I victimized Zay (he is just such a willing and helpful model).
The results were obviously hurried since I had to get to class. But it at least showed that it would work. We still need to work out some design issues but I feel like things are going to go fairly smoothly.
I am tired… I am sore… I have splinters in my hands… I am covered in asphalt… and I have a bleeding head (ok a little too dramatic I have a tiny scratch on my scalp)… and then I find out that someone was just in a tad bit overexcited and the part that got me the most banged up (my death) is unneccessary. Fun fun stuff… the good news is it is coming along, our biggest fear about pulling it off has been laid to rest and it should look cool.
In any case I am going to go grab some homework and a lot of epsom salts.
Still not sure what I was thinking… I do makeup… I do design… I act… now I’m weilding two double edged weapons??… yea so in practice today I broke one of the swords… not as in just cracked it; I sent half of it flying through the air. I’m not sure how this will turn out.
In other news I went up to Nashville this morning and that was fun. we went to performance and compared makeup ideas. Lots of fun… I said going in that I wasn’t going to buy anything, but even while I said it I looked at my finances and gave myself a budget; I went two dollars over… it’s hard to leave that store (performance) without buying anything.
I worked tonight and we got one good little rush but that was about it. The hard part about being a server right now is that everyone is so scared about their finances that even if they do eat out tips aren’t exactly flowing. I’m supposed to work again tomorrow but not till evening. It will be the first time in three weeks I can sleep in. I turned off all of my alarms. That being said I think I’ll go work on a logo design and watch a movie.
I didn’t actually set out looking for this part this year… Sword-fighting while very cool isn’t actually something I would pick for myself… but here we are; we had our first practice tonight. It went ok I’m much better at responding than I am at sticking to the moves… ie he calls a position and if my opponent gets it wrong I move to block the wrong one instead of sticking with what I know is right - however this works to my advantage when I am actually blocking without the moves being called… He also said I was too aggressive and I’m really trying not to be but it’s hard when your swinging swords around.
I’m dealing with working through some games my minds been throwing at me recently and it’s really thrown of my sleep schedule I haven’t been able to get to sleep till after three hardly at all and I’m exhausted. Last night I tried every relaxation technique in the book and when that didn’t work I counted backwards while adding in a pattern and stringing words backwards I figured if I could get my mind doing enough random boring things I wouldn’t be able to think of anything else… It took a really really long time but I finally did and then I had a ton of dreams…
I’m going to get some Benedryl (dr.suggested it) and try to get my body back on a semi-normal schedule. The good thing is I have plenty to keep me busy and I love brainstorming and problem solving. If I can stay focused on the things I love doing then other things can be sorted later.
I wanted to go to bed early tonight since I’ve been dragging in the morning… well I’ve been trying since eleven and still can’t… I hate wasting time like this… the nights I try to stay up and do HW I’m fighting off sleep the nights I try to get some rest I am restless…
Ready for random? Schools starting to become more demanding. I love fundamentals of acting and writing for digital media; hate literature and the other three are ehh… I have a ton of stuff to do this weekend. I’m still staying here in town and still love being so close. Judgment is starting again… weird. I have a lot of stuff I’m working on… some good some… well some stuff really really sucks… but I keep trying so that’s it…
